Feeling all sentimental

That's right, i'm having a cushy moment, god knows why, maybe the tiredness or the tea?

But i've just been pondering on shit, not literally, but you know life.
Me and my mate were talkin today at how lucky we are, not in a 'thank the holy jesus' kind of way, i mean in terms of who we could be/have and other people.
When i came to uni, ive gotta say one of my first reactions was 'fuck there is loads of posh people' and im no 'posh person'. The most craziest thing was finding out where they were all from, i mean some from the middle of fucking nowhere (i'm not talkin farms: one of my best mates is a farmers daughter, but she aint no weird ruraler), im talking about their connection with ACTUAL REAL LIFE.
these 'posh kids' come from god knows where, have had thousands upon thousands spent on their education for what? to be at exactly the same place as me.
A girl from a working class family who went to an 'ok' state school in one of the roughest areas of liverpool. im definately not tryin to hear the violins, im just stating fact.
Because really I never noticed the rich/poor divide until i came to uni. its just so unfair but lets not get me started on private schooling (fuckin hypocrisy...)

Back to what I was initially saying anyway....
its amazing how your background can affect your future but maybe more how you can use it to your advantage. I know a few people at uni from similar backgrounds to me and we all agree how much we had to work our asses off to get where we are today.
But, my point is, without sound pretentious, it only takes one moment of saying to yourself
'IM GOING TO FUCKIN' DO IT' and prove people wrong. I strongly believe in suprising people who don't think you can or you will do it.
Nothing is an excuse....money, ability, lack of support. you can do anything you want if you think you can. That's the beauty of life.

For example, we were discussing teenage pregnancy.
the usual reaction is 'omg teenager...pregnant? oh your lifes over...you will never have fun with your mates again... BLAH BLAH
WRONGGGGG!
For one, my mate has an absolutely beautful one year old daughter and shes an amazing mother! She is 19, in education, got a job. But it doesnt work like that right???

Some girl at uni got pregnant last year and this lead to my mate telling me about his sisters friend who got pregnant at 19 when she was at uni. She stayed with the dad, went to uni to do a foundation then got into a london fashion uni and her daughter is now 3 or 4 so by the time she has finished uni her daughter will be school-age. So who said life has to be put on hold.
It not always the 'lets get a council house and live on the dole and be a family' stereotype, but ye that does happen.

After all that blab i just hope its a tiny bit of inspiration to believe in yourself and be the person you want to be. Nobody has an idea of what youre capable of except YOU.

Weird dreams...

So another thing which has been on my mind, literally, is my unusual dreams

So sunday's entailed me gettin the job in paris (this was the day before i found out) and given an audi, a really snazzy one but i cant drive so i was gutted and they told me that i was to commute to paris every day...WEIRD

Last night, involved a house party in my house back in liverpool in which all my exes were there, very weird! And one tried it on with me. Ok it doesnt sound that weird but I woke up really pissed off as if it had really happened, bizarre!

Its always a weird occasion when they actually feel so real, i wonder why? The majority of the time you dont want them to be. Hmmmmm.....

RESULT

Soooo... after all the palavar with the numerous interviews with the french company
I GOT IT :D i think i got a bit over-excited on the phone! and forgot to speak when she told me i was goin to be paid...thank the lord!!! its goin to be expensive living in Paris of all places but its going to be so worth it, i cant wait for visitors :D but its all a thing of getting everythin sorted now, paperwork etc, so lets hope that goes smoothly!! eeeeeeek im soo feckin excited :) :)

on another positive result, got my january uni exam results and i didnt fail as miserably as i believed...goood times!!!
I wish i could exams rather than essays, as weird as that sounds but coursework certainly isnt my strength at all.
Overall i got two high 2:2s, low 2:2 and two 2:1, pretty pleased seeing as i was expecting the worse!! so tomorrow night is defo goin to be a double-celebratory night :D

things are looking up!

ooops i'm ill

It's always the way, you get ill when you least need it
Ok, maybe its encouraged by the fact I havent stopped since about 2 weeks ago seeing as Ive been to-ing and fro-ing between Liverpool and Sheffield the past two weekends
So not only I am knakered even after my epic sleep, I'm ill, let's call it infected by man flu! haha

Well i'm hoping that the two litres of OJ ive just purchased may help me!
I cant wait til friday to rest and do fuck all, what i deserve i think!

But its goin to be an emotional one tomorrow, my sister is leaving for oz for a year!
it hasn't really sunk in to be honest yet, but i bet it will yesterday, so no doubt ill be the crazo on the train with panda eyes, joys!
honestly though, i couldnt be happier for her, its just what she needs! to get away and live the dream i guess!

well well i bet take another dose of beechams finest medicines!
goodbye for now!