Lack of sleep makes me ponder

What stops us from saying the most important things we want to say?
Saying how we feel.

I think personally, it's fear.
Fear that you might just open up your heart and feelings to somebody and never be able to get them back. After all, once it's done, it's done. You can't take back those words or that moment.
Fear of rejection? That you may say something that isn't mutual or worse, they don't feel the same at all.

For me it's the fear of opening up. There is so many people these days who want to tell the world everything they feel, Facebook is the worst culprit, especially with the Wall-to-Wall's of soppy couples and the inevitable "love you xxxxxxxxxxxx" "love you moreeee <3 xxxxxxxx"
I'm not saying this in a bitter or cold-hearted witchy way, love is a beautiful thing and yes it's something to be celebrated. however, sometimes these big gestures make me weary, do they really mean it, is it to prove to somebody/ some people that they are happy or have some who loves them or is it societal pressure that we have to tell all our secrets and feelings. But do we?
Secrets are secrets, the love between two people doesn't have to be the knowledge of anybody else does it?

Maybe its my starsign Gemini that forces me into two minds; i want to be open but also want private. Or perhaps that my mum's genes in me. It seems as if shyness is some form of social abnormality, we all must be confident and outspoken, but shoudn't we just accept different personality traits.

I've opened up in the past, some for the best, some for the worst. But I read a good quote today but the one and only Dolly Parton, 'if you want a rainbow, you've gotta take the rain'.
You kiss a few frogs before you get your Prince as the story goes.

This goes back to my pondering, maybe I've met my Prince, maybe I don't want to admit that to myself because then my heart is on my sleeve and then it's all in their hands.....
Eek!

I should be writing an essay...

However, it's election day, the day I waited for, for so long, to break my voting virginity.
Popped at 5.30pm to be exact.

Not the most accurate of sources, but facebook has proved that basically aLOT of people have voted today, I think the count of facebook users was just up to over 1.7 million!
It always saddens me when people put the 'I can't be assed voting, they're all shit' card.
I understand some people are totally unaware of party policies etc, but I think its important for people to educate themselves on politics, not to be some crazy activist but to be 'in-the-know', after all it is our country and our vote does count. As Tesco says 'every little helps' whether its tactical voting or voting for your interests, it's important to take a stance. How can you complain about 'this country's so shit' if you don't particpate and be pro-active and just do something about it, that's the beauty of democracy.
Ignorance is certainly not bliss when it comes to politics, after all, its not hard to imagine the harm that parties such as the BNP, UKIP and The Conservatives can cause on the ordinary person.
The Conservatives seen as a right-centre party fucked this country up during Thatcher's stint. Seriously though, people blame Labour for the recession, when looking back, who privatised our industry, the conservatives! These people represent the top-earners, the top 5% richest people in the country i think the figure is, yet they want to control a country with a majority of working-class people, many unemployed and living in basically shit areas with shit lives, so why would the conservatives really give one when it's not affecting them?
I'm not trying to impose my political affiliations on anybody, but as Clegg says, fairness is what is needed.
I've mentioned in a previous blog, at university the working-class are certainly a minority in red bricks.
My point is, why should we accept that, why should anybody be living a life with lack of opportunities and drive to better themselves. The answer is in politics, it runs our lives, it's inescapable.
That's why I'm proud of every person who stepped out to vote today, whatever party they support, because we have a democracy, something we should be proud to live in as despite living in the 21st century, it is not a worldwide phenomena. People fought and died for us, we should make them proud and do their efforts justice.
Viva Emmeline Pankhurst and the Suffragettes!! <3

Boys boys boys

Let's face it, we've all got one certain weakness for those we find attractive.
I think mine is definately tattoos without a doubt.
I don't know why a boy with tattoos makes me so weak.
Is it the artyness within them? Or the fact they don't care to express themselves on their bodies.
Maybe its a bit of both....

I'm not talking the posey type, the people you know try to be soooo cool and have tattoos etc and have the whole indie look going on, but really just for the 'scene'
I'm talkin about the beautiful, kinda shy ones with beautiful body art that just make your mouth drop.

I also have a thing for glasses too, perhaps thats due to my loves of intelligence and glasses signify intelligence i guess.

Nevertheless, I always stand by the rule that personality is more greater, more attractive and more beautiful than any Calvin Klein model. FACT.